Tuesday, 22 March 2011

Getting to know me

Hi there everyone, my name is Kim and I'd like to welcome you to Our Time On the Edge.

You may be wondering about the title of this blog so I will take a couple minutes to explain who I am, what I do, and finally what the title means.

I am a 34 yr old obese mother of 2 wonderful yet over active children.  My oldest is 10 years old is diagnosed with ADD and my youngest is 2 and he was diagnosed with Autism last summer.   Needless to say the days at my house can be loud, exciting, chaotic, fun and at times very stressful.  I have recently moved to a city where I know no one, I use to be a social butter fly, the life of the party, but now I am a cook, a maid, a taxi driver, a personal shopper, a secretary, or better stated I am a stay at home mom.  It doesn't pay that great but my kids give the best hugs and kisses and that's all that matters!

I have recently started on the road to a healthier me.  Tomorrow is week 1 down and so far I am down 9lbs.  Which I am very proud of.  Dieting can be stressful at times, especially when the people around you still eat garbage and laze around and aren't very active.  I am not letting that stop me this time though, my mind and my heart are in the right place and I am ready to succeed!

I use to work a steady Monday to Friday job and that hardly ever paid all the bills, now that I am not working financial stress is taking it's toll on me.  Not knowing where the rent money is coming from month to month is extremely hard.  I do have a partner in my journey of life but he owns his own business (which isn't doing well) and doesn't see the urgency in having a regular 40 hr a week job.  Promises keep getting made but they are never followed through with.

You may ask the question "If things are so bad why don't you just go back to work?", well I agree but here is the situation.  As I stated earlier my 2 year old so was recently diagnosed with Autism.  On a regular week he has different therapies 3-4 days.  Once he is assigned a full time Autism Therapist (IBI), he needs to be available for 25-35 hours per week.  Sure he could go to daycare and the therapists could go there to help him, but I as his mother want to be a part of his successes!  I am the only one that deals with him 24 hrs a day and I deserve to watch him grow.  I have been advised that because he was diagnosed so early that he should be ready to start school at the same time as children his own age.  But I still stress and worry about him.

My oldest as I stated is 10 and now comes the stress of worrying about the choices he is going to make when they are presented to him.  I like to think I have raised him well and that we have a very open and honest relationship, but think of the parents of children who have went crazy and done stupid stuff, they almost always state that their child was an angel and they don't know what happen.  As he quickly approaches becoming a teen my stress level yet again increases.

So about my blog title.  Our time on the Edge.  Well if you have stuck out this introduction, one thing that you will see from all aspects of my life is that there is a crap load of stress!!  Sometimes the stress is so high that I start to wonder if I am starting to slightly go insane.  I am going to use this blog as a sort of stress relief, a sounding board of such so I can get out some of the stresses that have me teetering on the Edge..the edge of sanity.

With this being said I hope you have enjoyed Our Time on the Edge and I hope you will continue to read my posts as they come.